Wow..... I'm speechless...
I cannot express how much this means to me..
When I first saw LET'S JAM, I was so happy to join! An initiative for musicians, where I can write original songs, use my looper, and don't even have to sing?? This is tailor made for me! And I really am so happy to participate!
When I saw the other participants and heard their music, I'll be honest, I was quite intimidated... For one, my style seemed to be very different than everyone else's, my song was a lot longer than most, and to top it all off, everyone is so talented and proficient with their instruments, I really felt I was way out of my league..
You see, I started playing piano when I was eight (I actually started with keyboard the year before) and continued studying until I majored in music in high school, (theory and practice) 9 years later. But during that time, I was so insecure about performing, I only ever did the bare minimum that I had to to pass the exam, and always played much worse than i knew I could, because of my anxiety and nerves..
So I never really performed live. I never entered any contests. My music consisted solely of jamming with friends, or playing at home on my own.
It might sound sad when I say it like that, but it was the best! I only ever played because I enjoyed it, because I wanted to. And that's all I ever did with music. I stared recording some of the songs I wrote, and enjoyed the process of not only playing, but actually having something to show for it after. Taking my creative process to a new level.
This lead to me never wanting or needing anyone's approval for my art. I never tried to sell anything, or make money off of it. I always said to myself I'm not good enough to be a professional musician, that's why I only play for fun.
I have many successful musician friends, and I know how much time and effort they put into practicing.
I had many other interests in my life, and so I never focused entirely on music.
Which brings us to 2am last night, when I saw I had been mentioned in this post.
I assumed, as was expected, that I was listed as one of the proud participants of the first week. And so when I saw my name.... I was speechless... I was numb... I really was so utterly and completely shocked...
It is the first time I have ever won anything in my life. And seeing the other songs by such talented artists, I obviously never expected this...
But much more meaningful for me than a number, was reading 
You will never know how much this means to me.. Words cannot express (though not for lack of trying...)
Thank you..!
Thank you all!!!
Firstly, thank you
Secondly obviously, thank you for choosing me, and writing those kind, warm words..... I feel very unworthy...
Thirdly, I would like to thank 
Fourthly (no one ever says fourthly), Thank you to all the participants of the first week, it is inspiring and an honour to be with you here, honestly.
And lastly (but definitely not least) thank you to the HIVE community... Who have given me so much already, and continue to give... Who consistently are the best community I have ever been a part of...
I feel unworthy of everything you have given me.. And so I promise to pay it all forward, and offer the same support, love and acceptance to all Hive users I come across. I don't know how else to repay you all...
OK, 700 words is too much, but I literally couldn't fall asleep because my heart is racing. I apologise for making this so long, but it was important for me to express, just how much this means to me....
Can't wait for week two...!!
Let's Jam everybody!!!
Namaste to you all
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