This morning I came to my riverside. The same place I always return to when I need to think clearly.
My New Year feels solemn. Quiet. Not celebratory in the way people expect. Sitting there, my thoughts drifted to the flood of Happy New Year messages. Words sent easily, almost automatically, often by people who never truly loved you. It made me realize how much the phrase has become a habit. A jargon. Typed, sent, and forgotten.
No one calls anymore. No one pauses long enough to mean it.
I have made it a tradition not to wish Happy New Year or Merry Christmas. Not out of bitterness. Simply because life does not reset itself because the calendar changes. Nothing is new. It is another day to think deeply, to reflect, to draw inward, and to keep becoming.
I have learned to detach. Not from love, but from expectation. I expect nothing from anyone now. That lesson came slowly, and not gently.
I see clearly how many people I supported along the way. How much I gave in presence, thought, and care. There were no acknowledgments. Just movement forward, as if nothing had been carried at all.
That realization stayed with me longer than I expected, and it forced me to grow.
I had to turn back toward myself. To tend to myself with the same seriousness I once reserved for others. That was the beginning of self love for me.
There is a story that has stayed with me over the years. Not as religion, but as reflection. A man loses what was meant for him. His inheritance is taken. When he asks what remains, he is told there is nothing left to give him, only this advice. Do not stop. Endure. If you remain resilient, if you keep moving forward, you can rise beyond the one who took from you.
That advice stayed with him. Somehow, it stayed with me too.
Those who took from me did not take my will. They did not take my ability to continue. I did not stop. I will not stop. That advice lives in me now.
So if you are reading this and someone once took from you, in the same way or in any way that left you hollow, remember this. Be resilient. Do not give up. Keep going. Grow past it. Overtake what tried to end you.
As I sit here looking toward 2026, I understand something clearly. Even if what was meant for me was taken, what I am becoming cannot be taken.
I will endure. I will stand. I will become so grounded, so whole, so strong, that those who once took from me will one day see me and step back.
Not because I seek revenge. But because growth changes your posture.
I wish everyone a year of resolve. A year of steadiness. A year of intention. That we remain focused on why we are here. That we fulfill our purpose, whether we walk with lovers or face enemies.
I return to nature to draw my strength again.
A new year of love to you all.
