It feels like you wrote this on my behalf because all that you have written here is what I currently struggle with. I'm completely hooked. Every day I complain about how much weight I'm gaining, I only work out and eat healthy in my mind. Paid for a 1-month gym subscription one time, but I only went for 4 days. I hope you can finally stick to your objectives next year. As for me, I'll keep hoping for the day I finally become serious.