Growing up as a child, I've learned a lot, I grew up with adults surrounded by me. And this has helped me to think like an adult even at a young age.
A lot of people expect you to sacrifice your happiness for their own well-being, and guess what? I am one of those who sacrifice my happiness for other people's well-being.
I grew up with my grandmother, she has a self sacrificing spirit, she thought me how to let go of things even when it's hard, or when it's not in my own favor.
But the reverse is the case, a lot of people don't tend to retaliate the favor you've shown to them, they pay you with bad, and if you're not careful, you would begin to regret why you show them favor or why you displease yourself to please them.
I love helping people so much, I'll praise myself for having a soft heart, I hate injustice and I don't like when people suffer, that is why I always put other people first before me.
But how long will I keep doing this?
Every single time I try to put other people first before myself, I will always end up being hurt.
In the past few months life has taught me to always put myself first before other people. Humans are ungrateful, they don't seem to value you until they lose you. I've had ugly encounters with different kind of people, and I can boldly say human being are ungrateful.
2 months ago I was seriously ill, although I had health issues I was battling with, but it wasn't so serious, not until August 1st I was admitted in the hospital. I didn't want my personal life to affect my job, so whenever I want to take treatment, I would go on weekends.
I've been procrastinating going to the hospital for checkup, and this was because I was one of the major staff at my working place, i couldn't take a day off, I kept managing my body, but it wasn't getting any better not until I broke down totally, I couldn't even do anything with my body.
That was when I broke down and was admitted in the hospital. Meanwhile, I told my boss I was seriously ill and I was admitted in the hospital, he just said okay.
Due to the condition of my health, I couldn't resume work after coming back from the hospital. All the whole time I spent in the hospital, my boss never called to check on me, he didn't even care to know if I was alive.
It was then it dawned on me, that I wasn't valued in that company, i felt used at that moment, it was like i was only there because of what i was offering to the company and my well being doesn't really matter.
I was so ill to the extent that, after coming back from the hospital, I had to go back again because I wasn't feeling better.
Still yet, my boss didn't care, he never called to know how I was fairing. I was away from work for almost 2 weeks, few days after returning from hospital for the second time, my boss called me and was yelling over the phone, in his own words I quote.
Omachi, I can see you no longer want to work in this company anymore, do you think I'm playing with my business, you're using my business to play, if you know you don't want to work anymore just let me know, I want to see you resume work by Monday or else you will be fired.
It's funny how he didn't even care to ask how I've been fairing, he never asked after my health. After he was done talking, he hanged up the call 馃. I was just wondering how in human some people can be, I always put the company first before myself, the company was my number one priority, I always make sure everything was in place and at the right time.
It's just crazy how my boss failed to see all my efforts in making sure the company goes smoothly. The next Monday I didn't resume work, not just because I wasn't feeling well, but I wanted to see what would happen if I don't resume, I spent extra 1 week at home.
The next week, I resumed, all I had in mind was for anything to happen. I was ready for the worst, and I wanted to tell him how ungrateful he has been, and how disgusting his character was, but my greatest surprise he was so cool, I was expecting him to start yelling at me for not coming the previous week, I felt he knew what was in my mind, I would have given him a taste of his own medicine.
Human have different characters, a lot of people don't see the good in you, the only talk about the negative side. Always put yourself first before other people, never displease yourself to please others, people won't appreciate all the goods you've done for them just because you wrong them once.
Regardless of the ungrateful humans, there are few people out there who are worth sacrificing for, we all have to be careful, always remember to please yourself before other people.
