Time continues quickly too, it doesn't feel my tears drip when I read the social media of my ex, it doesn't feel like he has changed partners better than me.
He often asks about my news, all about my continuation. Forced with a heart that hated me in return, but instead he gave more attention that I never thought before.
There were many other conversations behind it, I could ask another question about it, of course the problem was again. I tried to tell honestly what was in my heart during that time.
Ma'am D
Vin, I understand how long as long as you lie to me, on the grounds that your cellphone is gone I try to understand you but you say to me, he said you were told to focus on your mother but why did you go out with Tiara? You understand that my feelings are not disappointed at you, but I am not angry with you, do not hate you, do not resent you. I just told you, don't ever do that with other girls, this time is different, girls can do anything to you. Vin, I want to take good care of you I love you vin
Calvinheeho Calvin
I want to give you 8 letters 3 words 1
what is the meaning of hayoo
Ma'am D
What?
Calvinheeho Calvin
Lha, yeah,
Ma'am, D
Oh, yeah !!!
Calvinheeho Calvin
I LOVE YOU
Ma'am D
If you love why do you leave me then cheat?
Ma'am, D
Is there no answer to my question, vin?
I didn't reply to the chat for a long time, even though I knew that he was active but he didn't answer anything about this.
Soon I got the words of someone who I thought was what made him aware
Ma'am, D
Just put your love on the deepest side of your heart. Let your love attached there
without her know how you feel
Let your love is quiet in there
without nothing else, would take it
Make rindumu, decorate dikesepian your evening
Make "how are you?" Instead of "I so love you"
Make "hope you are fine "As a substitute for" I want to have you so much "
Make all your love and your senses become love in prayer
Love in silence is troubling
But, it will be better than painful
love Because love is never eternal
There will be a time to take everything
Ma'am D
Like me to you vin
Calvinheeho Calvin I
mean
Ma'am D My
question is that you didn't answer vin?
Calvinheeho Calvin
I am not cheating on the deck
I like this just want to hear about you, I don't want it if you get scolded by your mother
I know that you are always scolded when dating me
Ma'am D
But why are you like that. I know that you're with Tiara, do you know how I feel?
I understand you don't have to lie, you are intent on cheating on me, honestly.
I felt my tears could not survive, I felt guilty between them. I know if this relationship is not blessed by my parents, but I really love you. I'm struggling to fix everything so you can be trusted I can't speak anything about everything, I always remember you I can't forget everything. I can't choose between STAY or GO AWAY.
The story continued from day to day, I and he were friends and as a younger brother now. Since then I and he are getting closer too, our closeness is like repeating a past story where when we were dating first (cie ...). Many people talked about us with our relationship, one answer to their question was "only friends" but they ignored, that's what they were because I often made a sosomed about one hundred, that's the story.
That's why we are getting closer, but not with love !! Because of what? I know with something he feels now, I just made him lonely. Then why did I spoil him and accompany him? there are many reasons for all this
- I really want to know what is felt right now. I don't want to repeat the third time it's not fair.
- I try NOT to love him, because I know about the FAILURE of our religion.
And this is the last reason - give karma with him, indeed I give my love to him, but not with this heartache right? It's just a pain, how come I want to repeat the old story? it will not be possible to cheat forever and also remember that, men find it hard to realize their mistakes especially about other girls who want to win by themselves, the reason is that many of us can never understand him to us.
This relationship lasted until now, still through social media secretly without anyone's knowledge, so this is what the name is afraid of being caught with the others right? especially about this crazy girl! hmm ... think a lot about uncovering the secrets of me and him, because what about that actually I don't want to contact, but it's actually tempting, so it gets hit. If there is an intention to make a return or not?
As long as I feel jealous with him, what does this make me repeat? when he was watched by his friend, his friend didn't mean his ex. Oh God, it feels like heat, how about that, let it be.
One day, I was contacted with Calvin. At first I didn't believe it, how could my girlfriend text my friend Tarisa, after I thought it seemed like I had to act with this? Finally it turned out right, my boyfriend really intend to cheat I really wasn't strong anymore for the defense of all this, I swear my tears kept on going oh God I felt like I was suffocating right now?
The decision to break up came to him, at the end, I confided in Calvin, so Calvin supported me and also remembered me, even though my joy to him was still the same as before? Confident for the sake of curhatan he started to chase at that time I felt he was really good ?, it was also so that I did not FLASHBACK to him so I discussed the others, the problem he left me for Tiara, without saying he just replied "sorry" huft .. I guessed he only answered that, because there was no answer to my question. Right, he doesn't know what to answer because he feels guilty.
The day continued quickly too, my race which was originally as a younger brother became a PDKTan and my race changed to the beginning, a sense of love also accompanied it. I tried to get away from him but my heart still wanted it why everything happened at the
wrong time. One time, social media was filled with tags from Nilung, he was his little friend. But the tag is not natural and not like a small friend and it really is, jealous flashes but I hold it back the more I am curious I ask him and answer "Little friend deck" short answer that makes me too busy thinking about him.
Since then I and he are more than friends, me and he also always express feelings through writing whether it is sincere or not.
Time continued quickly, I got a new friend Indra Purnama and it was from Riau so far, every time I talked to Calvin about him he would be angry and very angry. And that thing made me see me on social media.
Calvinheeho Calvin
Be happy with the deck, I realize why I don't deserve you. Face to the front and not to face backwards, behind me is I hindering your mind?
Mbak D
What do you mean vin, I love you
Calvinheeho Calvin
Cook
Ma'am D
Don't believe it already
Calvinheeho Calvin
Yes I believe you
D
It's up to you, vin, I don't force vin. Many happy you there!
Calvinheeho Calvin
Loh, Isn't It Wrong
Ma'am D
I'm why vin, who am I?
Calvinheeho Calvin
Said you were with Indra
Mbak D
Indra, her house, riau, cooking me LDR, she is my friend
Calvinheeho Calvin
Bener
Mbak D
Yes I swear, don't be so sad if you like that
Calvinheeho Calvin
Sorry
Ma'am D
Come back again as before Don't think negatively
Calvinheeho Calvin
Yes
Ma'am D
I want to Off first
Calvinheeho Calvin
Sms
Ma'am D
Insyaallah
Calvinheeho Calvin
Anyway sms
Ma'am, D
Off used to be
me and he went to SMS, over time I and he also became more comfortable with me.
Not long after that
he was in a strange status in my opinion, but why was Nilung confused that Calvin was angry? and finally my emotions rose instantly, I Chat him.
Ma'am, D
Actually, what you love is that you are spicy vin, I don't need you to lie !!
I don't reply,
Ma'am, D
What kind of relationship do you have with Nilung? I don't want it if you like this !! What does it mean, how can it be like that? Look at your status, read, feel what Nilung feels, I can't bear to hurt vin girls. if it is true you keep the feeling for him, don't need to slam my heart out of me. Nilung unfortunately you understand
Nor did he reply, I tried to ask Nilung myself
Ma'am, D
Greetings for you, I want to ask
Nilung
Ehheemmb
Ma'am, D
Sorry if I say that I hurt you off you don't mean I hurt you I'm sorry
Nilung
No need to apologize ... I know what? maybe you mistaken
Ma'am D
Hmm, you're not happy if I ask your relationship with Calvin. It's not that I'm taking care of your business with Calvin, at least you know your relationship, I honestly won't talk to people about how you feel, you know, you can be a friend, or a friend supporting
Nilung
I am Calvin's boyfriend ... but now hmh I understand how you feel ... I've read your chat with Calvin, yeah, forget it, what you want to talk about ... everything is over ..
Ma'am D
Bentar, I asked Calvin he said you were friends little, my oath is not a lie if texting says like that, he is a nasty oath,
Nilung
Yes, I am indeed his little friend, and also his girlfriend.
Ma'am, D
, God, forgive me, I don't know that you were dating just before I wasn't close to him, forgive me, I'm wrong with you
Nilung
Hhmmhh ... never mind I need to apologize I know your position is ok
Ma'am D
But now is your relationship ??
Nilung
Why is it maintained ... AND he is more dear to you, after all you and him ... close ... right?
Ma'am, D,
but I mean it's not like that if he said that having a boyfriend I would stay away, but he said he didn't even have a boyfriend, what can I do? I'm usually the big brother and sister. He forgive me.
Nilung
. Yeah. Don't blame each other. Guilty of each other ... It's better late ... than not at all?
Ma'am D
Hmmm ...
It feels like my heart just dropped off, saw and read the confession from Nilung. It flashed I wanted to text it, and asked for an explanation from him
To: Tiberias Calvin Natalarik Marcel Saputra
- 62858-5537 - ****
Vin at least you think my feelings don't just take your decision !!
5 minutes later
To: Tiberias Calvin Natalarik Marcel Saputra - 62858-5537 - ****
I swear your behavior is the same as Vin, Nilung you hurt Vin, you hurt Nilung means to hurt me !! Do you understand, Nilung, your boyfriend, Vin, why did I tell me, only friend Vin, why are you really bad, I swear I don't know you who are good with me, you are evil Vin. I regret that I let you stop by my heart until now you are evil? how do you feel where you love Nilung love you, he understands you vin why are you hurt like this vin Nilung is wrong?
I tried to keep asking questions and wanted to know about the clarity of her and Nilung's relationship, huft but instead they both made me confused completely, really if I could repeat again I would not know them both, not present in front of both of them. Huft, why does God create love as complicated as this. The story here I am like a lawyer who must help them get along, eh in fact SUPER DUPER FAILED TOTAL aka Cancel is ok. Eventually I feel guilty about both of them, I don't have to be in their lives, yes the name is still not MOVE ON, how else, I can't if I have to endure all this alone and that first, now I try to stay away from him, and today I stopped the steps with the two of them.