At this time, I found it for free in the internet especially in the YouTube. Yes, I am ready it as guide and warning. Sorry for those who don't believe this but with honesty, I accept that I am reading it for warning to me. As I've said, I trust God the owner of my day and life until the end, life after death.
At 2am today, my friend lighted candle. It was secretly done because it is not good that my boss will see it. She is a Christian from Africa and she had her own belief about life. But she lighted the candle for her and one for me without explanation.
Looking at the candle in our dark room, I remember my old times when my grandmother rendered a prayer. So it pushed me to utter wishes and I silently prayed and say some intention. God knew from the deepest chamber of my heart.*❤❤❤🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🐦🐦🐦!
What a feeling of emptiness, forced me to check my photo album and watched our old photographs.
This is me when I was three months here in Saudi and the new one is three days ago the one wearing in blue. Same thing holding the THE DATE tree(Saudi Arabia national tree).
I saw the picture of me and my late husband holding our only son.
Then the picture of me and my son during my first vacation.
Oh my God, I noticed the picture of us with my siblings and Uncle, the only brod of my father who is alive.
Watching my latest horoscope in Youtube remind me about what my grandmother told me about my future. It was long time ago during my elementary grade. Then lately, I got a friend in #hive who is a tarot readers 
Being the eldest among siblings, since my parents already joined our creator in heaven, the responsibility is now iny shoulder and of course my siblings. I am now solving issue and it deepened my thought, my boiling emotions for my family, my son and for myself.
May the candle lighted by my friend help ease the heavy burden and I know God will make it lighter and easy if we cast everything to him above.
This is just a story that I entrusted here in 
More page to tell next Monday!
@olivia08