One of the best part of my life is the day that I learned to have self love I never been before.Working here in my employer for a long time I was just focused in my work, how to earned money for my family and sent it back home. I had nothing for myself and I forgot everything for myself. I was contented in my lifestyle. I was not going anyplace and anywhere.My life was always in garden, inside the house, going to the grocery if we need stuff for the kitchen, washing clouds, cooking, cleaning and more for my employers. Taking a bath in the morning and sleep late at night. Those things I did since 1998 up to 2017.
Started New Thing Late 2017
It was December that someone introduced me in a certain platform and got started December 27 when I got the password. It brought me a lot of new things in blogging with the helped of my virtual friends.It changed my life aside from the new earning, a blessings I have until now.
Everytime I wrote about what I was doing, I need to show myself to verify myself that I am real to get attentions because I learned that I could earned more if I have the real story about me and so on. So, one of my mentors told me to have something that interesting. When I verified myself, many people knew that I am a widow. I remember, they told me to have online dating sites so I could find someone in my life, to have a gift of myself and etc.
Then, I was attending the wedding of my employer's first daughter. Was a big party and during the big day, they dressed me with a total makeover. They paid for me and every one were surprised from the outcome of myself. No one recognized me that I was the maid/housekeeper of my boss when we arrived the wedding hall. My boss have 4 married children and they dressed me up during their wedding.
Last Thursday night, I attended the wedding of my lady boss nephew. This time, I already know how to use makeup and my madam provided me a gown to wear. I am not going to attend wedding of other people but I only willing to attend the wedding of clan members.
When I arrived the venue, I enjoyed more on taking picture outside before going inside. Cellphones were not allowed inside the wedding room.
I did it while they were busy dancing inside.
Before, I was not doing like this. So funny, I got self confidence now that I am a grandmother. I wasted a lot of precious moment in my life and never too late to smile though I am totally broken. I just want to be happy in my picture for my blog.
With my fellow #ofw, I am the oldest among them. They are at their 30's. They are just like my children. I am 53 years old🤗🤗🤗.
How I wish to be in my 30's today.My husband died when I was 34 years old. Sana may self care ako at nagkaroon ng second chance to love again before,baka may kasama ako at may anak kasi I only have one child from my late husband. Siguro if nagmahal ako baka hindi na ako mag work dito. But it is already late, no one could ever love me again because I am already older now. Hanggang pangarap nalang pag may tinatagong feeling 🙁🙁🙁 dahil wala na pag-asa na may magmamahal. Sana may pera ako para ako mahalin.Paano isang hamak na mahirap lang at wala ng pag-asang mamahalin ako.
Loneliness covers my life and how I wish to be happy before I die. Yes, it is just a matter of dream, a day dreams without realization. And the truth, I will die alone and lonely. I just thinking about this because my friend encourage me to have a lover. Even before way back 2018, they arranged a dating site for me but I refused. The other day, she told me again but I just laugh and 😂😂😂😂😂😂. If I love again I will see to it that it would be FOREVER AND EVER. No one hold me since I was 28 years old. I wasted half of my life span being alone so if God will give me someone to love, I hope He will give me the best. Sana all😇😇😇❤❤❤. Sana walang 💔💔💔😭😭😭. Natawa ako sa blog ko ngayon, dami ko kasing iyak kagabi. I cried a lot last night until I fall asleep. I was writing this blog but I woke up unfinished.
I just say everything to ease the pain I felt and all the regrets I found with in me. Don't judge me of what funny thing I am writing now😁. And I am having make up once in a blue moon. There is no wedding monthly. It will take some years from now to have another wedding in the clan of my boss.
Thank you 
@olivia08