It's been a while again. I'm back here because I don't think Facebook or mixi are the best places to talk about my health or family. When I post about my health concerns on Facebook, some people tell me not to post things like that, and on mixi, my sister sees them.
My father, who lives in a nursing home, is nearing the end of his life. He was rushed to the hospital by ambulance in early December. An MRI scan showed no signs of a cerebral infarction, and he was returned to the facility. Later, the doctor at his home told my sister, "He may have had a cerebral infarction that wasn't visible on scans. Don't expect him to be the same from now on. A sudden change could happen at any time." Then, the other day, on January 25th, after my sister visited him, he developed a fever and was rushed to the hospital again by ambulance. He is undergoing brain and lung tests and treatment for pneumonia.
Speaking of which, my parents' house in Kamiayashi is finally scheduled to be demolished at the end of March. Even though I don't have many fond memories of the house, I have mixed feelings about it going away. My sister and my paternal aunt seem to be making progress. I managed to salvage the DVDs of Michael Moore's films "Fahrenheit 9/11" and "Sicko," as well as a collection of Russian and Soviet paintings, which I had left in my room at my parents' house.
I'm also worried about the health of my osteoarthritis in my knees. I can't use patches because they cause a rash, and even topical ointments cause a rash. I'm currently taking oral medication, but the doctor said it's strong and puts a strain on my stomach and kidneys, so I can't take it for long.
I couldn't go out this morning, and finally went out shopping around lunchtime. This is typical of mental illness. I know I need to vote early, but if possible, I'd rather stay indoors.
The photo shows baked cheesecake and tea I had at a small cafe that recently opened in Hachiman.
またまたごぶさたしています。またここに来たのは、Facebookやmixiが体調や家族の話をするのに向いていないと思ったからです。Facebookでは体調に関する不安を書くと「そんなこと書くな」と言う方がいましたし、mixiでは家族が見ています。
老人施設に入っている父がそろそろ人生の終末期に来ています。去年の12月はじめに救急車で病院に搬送された時はMRI検査しても脳梗塞らしきものは見えず、そのまま施設に戻りましたがあとで在宅ドクターが「検査では見えない脳梗塞があったかもしれない。これからは今までと同じとは思わないでください。いつ急変があってもおかしくない」と私の妹に言ったそうです。で、先日1月25日に妹が面会しに行ったあと、熱が出て、また救急車で病院に運ばれました。脳と肺の検査、肺炎の治療をしています。
そういえば上愛子の実家はついに3月末に解体されることになりました。あまりいい思い出がないとはいえ、あの家がなくなってしまうことに複雑な思いがあります。妹と父方の叔母がどんどん話を進めているようです。私は実家の中の私の部屋に残してきたマイケル・ムーアの映画「華氏911」「シッコ」のDVD、ロシア・ソビエト絵画の画集を救い出しました。
私自身の変形性膝関節症の調子も心配です。湿布はかぶれるからダメ、塗り薬でもかぶれた、今は飲み薬を飲んでいますが、強い薬で胃や腎臓に負担になるから長期間は出せないと言われました。
今日は朝に外出できず、お昼近くにやっと買い物しに出かけました。メンタル病みあるあるです。選挙の期日前投票には行かなきゃと思いますが。できるなら部屋にこもって過ごしたいです。
写真は八幡に最近できた小さなカフェでいただいたベイクドチーズケーキと紅茶。
