I've been exploring that for at least 20 years now. You'll always have to get to a 'God' of some form or another, unless you have the faith based accident+evolution theory as your belief. One personal conclusion I have made is that Atheists have far too much Faith for me, to be able to declare that there is no Creator, while breathing. When I was a young Agnostic, I felt the same... Atheism is a Faith Based Belief, as is the opposite.

Doesn't seem pointless to me to explore. I don't even care if I find the 'answer'... I just try to show doors to both sides' faith.