Sometimes, I get mad at myself for doing things I ought to do and some other times I feel happy and fulfilled for doing things I ought not to do. I really do not know if this makes any sense to you. Probably it happens to you too. Maybe I should elaborate more on this so that you have a good understanding of what am saying.
Let's assume you planned to go to the museum tomorrow, and then you ended up going to the amusement park instead of the museum. Later that day, you get a news that there was a fatal accident that occurred on the way to that museum. As much as it was a sad news, I'm sure you will regard yourself as being fortunate to this course.
You keep asking yourself different rhetorical questions like; what if I did go to the museum, maybe I would have been the one involved in that fatal accident? What if I had followed my plans and go to the museum, maybe I would be dead by now?
These questions kept ringing in our mind. However, we always forget that there is good in evil and there is evil in good. Sometimes, when we are fail, we tend to think it happened because we are a failure. We become disappointed at ourselves and some of us might even end up giving up on trying.
If you found yourself in that kind of situation, I want you to remember all hope is not lost. Just because you fail today doesn't really classify you as a failure. It only means that you need to try again. Even if you fall 10 thousand times, make sure to rise again 100 thousand times.
Always put it at the back of your mind that It is never over until it is over. Keep pushing and keep on trying. Believe me, you will reach your goals someday. And don't always expect a free ride to success because there is good in evil and there is evil in good.