Incase you missed the previous post
Okk well after much, we went to a mall to buy some stuffs both food n other things and i bought her black bullet drink it contains alcohol sha ..
when we left ,we just went to the hotel and our gist continued ...
We kissed and had some little romance
and that was when she told me shes a virgin ,.
but before i met her she said she wasnt thou.
Things got hot during our kisses and at some point i tried taking off her pantie and attempted having sex with her , at that point when i was about to go in ,she said its painful so we had to Stop ..
Later she took the black bullet drink and started displayin ,the stuff got her high and it was funny sha ,i had to even carry her from the floor back to bed ..
Later she said i should bath her cos she's not her self ..
i took her to the bathroom and since there was a bathtub there it was easy to bath her ..
After bathing her i wore her one of my shirts and she climbed the bed and hugged me and slept off, when she woke up she kissed me and i had to wake because she got ontop me and there again we started romance and this time i tried takin my d**k in ,it only entered a little bit but slowly it was able to go in and it wasnt too deep ,and so we just had sex like that ..
We did it all through the night like once we finish any round we both get to sleep off ,if she wakes up; we will just continue the sex and it goes on like that till she goes back to sleep ..
When it was morning, we ate and she was telling me not to be angry that she lied that she wasnt a virgin while she was still one ,
i just told her it doesnt really matter to me even if she was a virgin or not ,
even during the sex, my d**k couldnt go in much deep ...(all the while we were having sex at night i wasnt putting it in too deep)
Anyways we kissed again and after taking our bath this time the Romance got hot and when i tried putin the d**k in again it entered but i had to push it in a bit deeper this time ,
It felt really good thou and we even used different styles using protection too.
After everything we both went to bath again and later dressed up ,we were getting ready to go out and we started gisting ,
So she told me she would like to start hook up ,(she wants to start going out on random dates) and her reason was because she wants to explore things and that her friends are doing too.
And she told me she wants us to be special and was promising me she won't have sex with any of the hook up guys ..
I was just speechless,
Later her phone rang and she picked the call and headed to the bathroom to make the call, the phone was some how loud so i could hear their conversations.
It was a friend calling her and was asking her about a guy she went to see the previous day .(like the day she was supposed to come see me and she didnt show)
I just knew from the conversation that she was with him the day i came around and that was why she couldn't come to see me, and from her conversation she said he have traveled back home the next day because the guys school is not on holidays (strike) and she saw him off , and the caller jokingly asked her if love have carried her that she had to go home with him because she didnt come back to her school hostel after seing the guy off ;
she just said she was busy somewere and she will be back later..
I was just sad because i thought i was building something special with her it now turns like its going to be a friends with benefits fling.
And so when she was done i just told her not to do the hook up and she said she just wants to catch cruise ..not like she will have sex or anything now ..
To me it sounded funny because guys will always like to have sex especially when they have interest in you,spending on you, and taking you out on different dates too ,...
like omo i just told her she never jam yet.
I finally left the next day and headed back to my state and while i was still on the way ,she called me to know if am back home safe..
When i got home i called but her line was switched off..
2hrs ,5hrs, 24hrs later still not available,
I sent a text to let her know i am back home safe and that was it.
Ever since i left, i wasnt able to reach her for good three days ,she later called at midnight on the 3rd day to tell me she have been sick and was even cryin ,i just teased her that maybe its because she misses me oo.
We both laughed about it and all and i assured her she will be fine and let her try avoid stress too ..
But after that night her number was still hardly reachable,she never replies my messages,rather she calls me when she likes and ask me just normal stuffs and all ..
2weeks later she called me one friday and told me she wants to start visiting sons of solomon (thats what we both call guys that usually disturb her to visit them )like she wants to start visiting them in their houses ,
but she said shes scared of getting killed or raped i just told her she shouldn't bother being scared of getting killed rather she should be scared of how they might only kill her with their dk and she said its better to be killed with dk than being used for ritual ..
We talked and she ended up saying she might not carry out her plans since its thats risky.
Well since that day she hardly replies my text or call i just only see uploads on her status and timeline about how shes not being loved enough and so many other heartbreak posts ..
She hardly replies my text or chats and you can't know when she's online or not,and i cant even reach her because her number was hardly going through self..
I even ordered for some stuffs for her online like shoes and dresses i gave them her address and they delivered it to her at her school , when she got it ,she called and thanked me for the gift and that was it .
Another 3days no calls and even if i do call her line wont be reachable and when i text she wont reply,
Shes the only one that calls me when she likes to tell me how she misses me and all but then she hardly act or communicate with me the way we should be.
Well there was a time she once told when i called that i always see her as a kid because she just turned 18 and i said as long as she still has the teen on her age either 18 or 19 she will always be a baby to me so i will have to be taking care of her like my baby, although i was just kidding then '.but she says i always make fun of her and she will do something that will make me cry and she will block and delete my number ..
but i just felt it was a joke too because we didnt have any issues or fight rather we both laughed about it..
I just got confused thou like the issue here is..
Shes the one that gets to call now because i have given up in calling her ,and sometimes it takes 5days to reply my chats or call back.
i really liked her but like this it feels like shes not serious to date me and wants to cruise..
I am the one feeling the heartbreak since my mind is gradually loosing the love i have for her some how ,
and i have this feeling and urge to just catch cruise too the way she wants to be catching cruise ..😢
But i dont want that ,even though i have relentlessly told her about how i feel and she still accepts me but her actions says differently ..
/Like for real should i let go or just end things and move on ,or is there something wrong i that i haven't noticed because she always have excuses each time i complain about how poor we communicate/.