Sometimes when I remember your words, I feel that if I had understood everything at that time, maybe I would not have suffered so much in life. Maybe you were right when you said that we should leave from here and then never tell whether we will meet again or not. Just laugh and spend time here and just in fact you were giving me hints that you and your feelings were nothing for me. Say something that you never said. I knew even then that I was nothing for you. Yes, I was blind in those days in your love and your friendship. I only saw your goodness. You know I also know your weakness but I ignored it. Because I thought you were my friend. You were very special for me, maybe you are still special, but what you did to me, how you made fun of my friendship and love, you did not even feel that how it feels when the heart breaks. My heart was with you, maybe my mind was also gone. But what about you? You made fun of me very well, you got very happy by making a spectacle of my heart. You were also right when you said to keep yourself busy, forget everything, everything will be fine. I don't know if anything happened or not, or everything is worse than before. In the many bad things of life, waking up this pain in the night is the worst.
