Random Ramble on a friday (roll cake Depression)

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I saw a documentary on Netflix fat sick and nearly dead The titles describe movies but are also about juicing

I thought I would write about my food challenges

when a had my depression a Called it by name is was a: Rulle kake Depression

or "Swiss roll" the cake comes from central Europe. around 1900

was popular in Norway 1950-1990. very good super fast to make almost like a sponge cake

anyway.

I have always been a thin man, but a got s small stomach (beer belly or Swiss Roll belly)

I had a depression for many years had different solutions to tackle my feelings over the years but the one a always fell back on is the Swiss Rull cake.

So back in 2014 a normal day for me was go to work 8am.

then so stress and angry and sad a good mix whit all of them.

so did not eat any food before going home then 7 pm

going to the store on the way home, but a was worn down so did not know where I was. so a just got a swiss cake or something like it. eat all of it alone the next day and do the same.

a think food and mental health go hand in hand its the same as drugs and other destructive self-medication addictions.

semlor Swedish wheat buns with marzipan content

not relevant but lacking a picture. btw this is very good one if u can find one its "fastelaven"

7 weeks before Easter in most of Scandinavia Norway has a bit more boring one.. anyway.

am not depressed longer. but am still comfort eating

when something "old feelings or just a day bad"

a going back to eating a lot of wrong food here in canada a like one box of orios or

7 leaf of bread whit Peanut butter and jams.

but if a had a god bike ride or a good day am making good food.

when a was depressed there was no way out. I remember at work my colleagues start comment on my stomach

it was like getting hit me in the face its not like a was not aware that I gain weight.

I see eating as a form of self harm. its just it's slower way of doing it.

I expect that most people realize that many people do not choose to over eating. It is true that there is a choice but it is in the same category as stop and smoke or drugs. its super hard.

making good food it super hard when u are hate yourself.

and if u live a alone nobody is there to stop you.

Kvæfjord Cake voted Norway's best cake

In my journey I have been 1000 times better then 2 years ago.

but this one is a hard one to stop. last year back in norway a did a lot of good work I lost weight.

I had a deal to not eat sugar when I was home but a could eat something at work.

I had a list of what I ate. if a i ate something wrong

source

It was a very hard job. but a managed it for about 6 months

a did easy off whit the shame part. am bean doing vegetable smoothie every day fore 1 year or "almost"

am pre making them in bags frozen.

if u dont like pulp in the smoothie this is not fore u.

am a barke atm but a hope when stuff is settling down here more a can go back to my shame list. lol. a Ned the rest of my life to work before a can do it 100%.