The fact I know a lot of people is true. From all walks of life, dude. I can't confidently say I know people well though. I always get the feeling I'm welcome but at the same time I've always felt like I'm too much for most people so it's better to keep some distance and not bother them. That's just how I am. Even this conversation here, it was called an argument. On my end, I'm just talking to you.

I think your fear is irrational. I'm studying your delivery right now. It's a habit of mine. Analyzing you lol. I can see why it's difficult for you to be straightforward and honest; direct. I could offer advice but I'm confident you won't accept it or see how it could help. You're setting yourself up to worry.