I used to be a heavy drinker, 6 beer per day, minimum. Weekends were benders. I had to stop completely and deal with the rattles. Did it all without any help, because the help seemed like a cult to me. I knew I could never stop forever, and didn't want to. Just wanted to break the addiction, learn from those mistakes, so I could once again enjoy a simple beer or two while I relax in the sun, or whatever. And no more throwing plates out the window because for some reason I was angry and didn't feel like washing them, episodes.