Talking about disappointment, it seems like I'm experiencing it. I'm reflecting on disappointment and it ultimately leads to revenge. Maybe, I find it hard to forgive someone. What do I feel?
A few years ago, I had a very close friend. Wherever we went, we would always be together. In total, there were five of us. Another one went back to his hometown in Jambi. So, in Jakarta there were only four of us. We have been friends since 2017, when we first came to Jakarta.
Every time there was a difficulty, one of them always helped. Until, one day I felt very disappointed with one of my friends. Let's call her Dian, this is a pseudonym. Why, because Dian's jokes were too much. like mocking and making fun of me. And discriminating against me.
One of them, Dian didn't believe I could go on a diet. Why? Among the other four people, I am someone who likes to eat. So, with my habits, Dian didn't believe I could go on a diet. On the one hand, I was challenged, on the other hand, I felt like she wasn't like my best friend who supported me.
Until one day I was disappointed. Very disappointed, I was angry until I decided not to greet her. I once sent a long message, so that she understood my disappointment. but, in fact she did not understand. I am a Sundanese woman. Having a distinctive character, when I am disappointed I will leave without a word.
Until finally it lasted for almost two years. Dian still did not understand my silence. On the other hand, I have forgiven her, but I am also waiting for a direct apology. There were four incidents that I waited for an apology from her. But, it did not come. I was even more disappointed. I deleted and blocked her number.
In fact, for almost 7 years we have been friends, Dian did not understand my character. Very disappointed. But, actually time changes everything. Until, one time, not long ago it happened. I met Dian again. It was quite awkward and Dian approached me. apologized, but only briefly.
Yesterday, I invited Dian to chat for a while. In the conversation, we talked heart to heart. Finally, we started something new. Re-understanding each other's characters. The thing that was bothering me was finally resolved. We made up again. That's all I can tell you. See you in another story.
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My name is Nurdiani Latifah. I live in Jakarta – Indonesia, and after 25 years I live in Bandung. I am a media staff at an NGO in Indonesia. I have worked in this institution for almost 2 years on issues of women and peace. I have been a journalist in Bandung for 3 years.
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