Hello hello already one day to Christmas and I didn't make any plans for this day actually previous years this was a special month for me but this year I am in Grinch mode because of the disappointments and situations you have in life if so sure if you are reading me you will tell me we are in the month of forgiveness love and hope that is pure blah blah blah paper holds everything.
The important thing is the health that you have life the rest does not matter are the words of motivation that you receive from people who are not in your same situation, and yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes the rest if it matters those words feel like a kick in the liver, how are you going to show up at a family reunion and say here I am if they have not seen me without even a bag of bread, no no no because I assure you that the first thing some people will say is look, he showed up with nothing, not even a soda just to eat and do not tell me no because it is so, they do not say it but they think it and for the effects it is the same.
So for this Christmas I'm in Grinch mode I'm out of money all I invested in the repairs of the car that is still missing yesterday the mechanic showed up with the news that some screws are missing we have to buy them they are 10$ 馃が馃が I don't even have enough for an egg and he comes to tell me that it was not worth all my effort just one day before Christmas I'd better count to 100 so I can get over the .........馃が.
So this Christmas if a miracle doesn't happen I'm going to spend it watching TV because I don't like to go to family parties without bringing anything plus with my situation for sure I'm not going to be good company for anyone plus I'm not in the mood to celebrate if I don't have money to collaborate because money doesn't make happiness but it leaves you at heaven's door 馃榿馃榿馃榿馃榿 let's see what happens next week the situation may change but for now I'm in Grinch mode.
Don't expect me to wish you a Merry Christmas because I'm not in the mood so I'll say goodbye.
@nill2021