Hello friend I am very moved by part of your story depression is a difficult feeling to overcome the internal struggle and the emptiness you have is a very heavy burden and look I understand you perfectly because I have walked there, I do not know if you believe in God the only one who can help you out of the abyss where you are stuck let him your burden trust him I recommend it God always comes in time when you are most desperate give you the opportunity to enter your life

Blessings 💚❤️