The annoyingly weird thing is that you've always seen yourself as a worker of God.
Are you fucking mental or retarded or something? Have you never seen or read any of the texts? How God bellows from above, how God shines light on his people?
Work with the Devil you do my friend, and yes he's real. You better believe it.
I'd start taking all those crucifixes down from your house if I were you because you won't be needing them where you're going.
BLESSED ARE THE MEEK - is perhaps the truest form of the Bible. Emperors and Kings kept it because it looked good for them. But it's true.
Skulk in the shadows you do mate, tell lies to people. Those you protect are definitely not the people you want to be in league with. This is devils work.
Shady shadow are you my friend.