Thinking about it I have rralized the reason why I don't like to get married at my situation right now.
1)I still have a loan that cuts my salary into half
2)I have a very low salary if you get married you need to loan more in order to sustain your kids.
To summary all I dont want to get married cause Im not financially stable. I l'm not financially stable because of my job.
MAY BE I NEED A NEW JOB..