Hmnnnn brother you've said it all with your last statement that says life is not meant to be understood. Life can never be balance no matter how hard we try because people that have is complaining of somethings they don't have, and people that don't have @ll is also complaining they should even have even if it is little. You see why life can never be understand nor balance. We just have to leave it like that and thank God for anything God gave us.