I understand how tough things must have been for you, be it your health aspect. How frustrating that would have been for you. I know things wouldn't have been easy for you on that. And also you don't have to see yourself as "nobody" Some member's of your family might not know your value, but people around you will definately value your presence and your impact in their life, especially your partner, even if other see you as "nobody" I belief she can never see you as nobody. I didn't know you physical though, but I know you really making impact in people's life in one way or the other. So don't see yourself as someone doing bad.