Parents don't always have all the tools to provide and in times of difficulty... it's complicated. I am sorry. I missed a few trains, but I made sure to wait for others when I had my tools. Sometimes I feel like my tools are not enough to get me where I'd like to go. If I had a child, maybe it would be more complicated now to give him certain things. Times are still difficult. And so... the never-ending story. 🤷‍♀