I read this story and I was just going to talk about the fact that maybe good therapies would have managed to control your father's character. In this relationship I see that your mother deserves a statue: few women would have been able to cope with that situation as she did. It would be nice to hear her feelings, her vision of the relationship. It must not have been easy. I imagine you as a child and I want to hug you. It must not have been easy for you either. Especially since, in childhood, we don't know how to act in the face of adult crisis. Thanks for sharing a piece of your life with us, friend. Hugs