Good morning, @rok-sivante! Sorry you couldn't sleep. I hope you used your insomnia to write, read or make music. Sometimes thinking too much is not good! And watching the internet too much is not good either. LOL;). Seriously: I visualize you at this moment as a being at a crossroads, attracted by a wide spectrum of variables, who hesitates, but is always looking for balance, even if it is denied. And to use the analogy of the vicious one: to recognize its vice, is a great step. Surely your spirit is a little melancholic and you have paralyzing doubts in the face of some facts and on the other hand, excessive surrenders in front of others. I do not know of any artist, sensitive man, who did not feel reality like an eagle pecking at his entrails. The covid-19 has left us like a tree without leaves and roots: naked and with nothing certain. These are strange and aggressive times for human beings. Blessed are those men who still doubt what they see and hear! I embrace you