Yeah, I know.
I just can't remain relaxed when confronted with perceived authority.
I can't control the amount of adrenaline that enters my bloodstream, I start to shake, I raise my voice to make a point, which I know works counterproductive, but there's ... there is something I can do about it. I should meditate!

When you said: "Yes and no", about those calendars, I did not instantly recognize how exact that answer was. Nor did you. I just wrote a post about it. I mentioned your name, so you should be able to find it.