If it were before, I wouldn’t even put up a post tonight. Mehn, I feel so tired and weak. While writing, I could feel my thumbs shaking and screaming...
Just stop now!
I said I would, but only after it gives me a little push further
I don’t like writing at night because after all the day's hassle and tension it becomes twice as tough to type(like I am right now) compared to typing during the day.
I even had to talk to someone just to get my mind off writing tonight(let's scrap it), knowing that I will come back to it later.
A little distraction won't hurt too as it is my own tricky way of reducing tension and pressure whenever they seem too intense to handle. When it comes to writing, for me, it serves as a way to let out all the day’s stress.
Because when it's time to write it is at that moment that I feel the day's pressures and anxiety the most. The brain also has to walk through the day's activities looking for what can be made better and if possible change or improve on the next day, and also what can't be changed no matter how much you try.
There are some things you just can't change
Like I said, I usually write in the morning.
One of the reasons is that I don't want to be that fella who stares at his phone late at night. When it's nighttime I only prefer listening to music to watching a TV show or doing anything that would involve me staring at the Blue Light that radiates from my phone screen.
Apart from the damage from too much exposure to blue light, there's also another reason for detecting using my device late at night. This stems from the discrimination towards any young adult who are occupied with their phones at night.
Here in Nigeria, merely making use of your phone late at night can indirectly make people get the idea that you might be some Nigerian Prince scammer who's looking for preys late at night.
Regardless of what people might think, I've got no other choice than to stick with the new routine and time I've got. What anybody thinks doesn't matter as I can't change their minds when they've already made them up. So I'll rather give myself the push needed to adapt, adjust and concentrate on what I can control.
But still…
I loathe writing at night
But then, I'm one of those people who likes to see some good out of the worst moments.
And just as they say - there is always some good in everything that happens in our lives, no matter how bad we might think they are.
It’s 10:50 pm as of writing and I can tell you all I can hear is silence, stillness, and some synchronized sounds from nearby frogs. I suppose my brain is nearly now in sync with writing at night.
