It's almost a year since I left home. I brought dreams with me and my family. Hoping that someday I could help in the way I could. I'm an adult maybe but not too old. I know what should I do. I grew up depending with my family because that's how I raised. But it doesn't mean I will rely on them forever. I escaped home while wishing that it should me be the one this time to help them. But fate is cruel to me. When everything wAs planned already, it suddenly took the chances I was grabbing on.
It's okay if I will be away when I have something to give. Not like this, staying in a place far from home but no future awaits. Even so, I have plans in my life even though it's blurrier than darkness. That's why I decided to go home first before anything else. I need to build myself again because covid broke me. I'm getting crazy every day staying in a place alone and wondering what will happen next.
I know I should stay there because the world is healing. I'm confident to say that this time for sure. But forgive me for being such a home boy. I still can't help it staying away without anything that makes me busy. That's why I need some time to recover. I need to fix how I was a dreamer before. I wanted to to make myself help again. Corona hit me so hard that I should be home first to start it all over again. It's not easy to lose all your hope because you thought there's no chance for you anymore.
Home is where my composure of life starts. My dreams, my feelings, my childish attitude, etc. I wanted them all to return from the old me. That's what I need the most to continue moving forward because tomorrow is yet too far to reach. I'm not wasting my time but I'm doing this to hasten myself in achieving my dreams. Now this time I'm going home. Mix emotions that I don't know how to say it. Maybe if I'll be at home that I could really tell what I'm feeling at the moment.
I have to say goodbye for now because I will be leaving. I will be back tomorrow and get ready for another day to come when I'm home
thank you for reading
images are mine
Huawei p8p8
d' dreamboy,
