@creativemary Thanks for this opportunity, you are blessed 🥰 here is my entry.

The Battlefield of the Mind by Joyce Meyer.

Her heart raced as a speed of light at the spike of her thoughts,
Her thoughts are like hays that went haywire at a snap of a finger,
She deemed herself fit to keep herself fit under her feet but instead,she felt gradually washed away by the whirring of her obnoxious imaginations.

You know Jerry now? yeah! that guy we met in a conference at Abuja,are you aware he tied the knot with someone last week?
Waoooh! you don't mean it?
Congratulations to him! he deserves it anyways....she said,wearing a facade gesture,smiling gleamy.
Did i just say he deserved it?
Jerry! that surly human, who would have opted in for a death sentence of marriage with such a guy? i pity the poor lady........

It's all in her head; her sizeable loaden head,
It is in her mind; there's a hell of a traffic there.
No word passes through it freely without thorough scrutinization,
She's always at the edge to counter every sentiments, perspectives,morals and judgements of someone or something negatively...
She's guarded by a world of negativity than positivity all because, of her early exposure to things (stuffs) that shouldn't had met the eye of a kid.
Unhealthy upbringing?
Obscene societal influence?
Incest?
She was a prey of all.
And,this was her situation!

Long before now,she was the queenpin of blame - passing,
Perhaps,that'll at least help in extinguishing the flame of her hostile mind and towards others,
But,who heals from a wound without caring and tending for it?
Who scarecrow at a scar and expect a spontaneous vanish?
She knew she need to heal from her pain,
She knew she had to face her fears with fierceness,
She knew she had to say farewell to her long overdue allies of ;
Self pity,
Self victimization,
Self destruction,
And that, she did.....
And this is my story!

Therefore,there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus,who walk not after the dictate of the flesh but,after the spirit. (Romans 8:1)

I knew i needed lot of help,i mean lot of it...... of which I know no one could render without tagging a price to it so,i asked freely from He who give liberally without asking for anything in return.
I ask God!

Bit by bit,
Step by step,
One day at a time,
I reclaimed all the days the cankerworms,locusts and the caterpillars have eaten.
I knew for sure the damage that has became of me took years so likewise will my healing,i wasn't in a rush.
Was it difficult? yeah! it was.
Was it impossible? Nay! but,midway it almost pans to be.

He called me defected and defeated, No!......that's not me....
He told me I'm unworthy,Jesus did not came for that either.
You're destroyed beyond any repair, guess what? Jesus has the capability and dexterity to make something out of nothing (The feeding of the thousands with five loaves of breads and two fishes)
"I released myself unto Him and He made known His will for my life.

"My past may explain why I'm suffering,but i shouldn't use it as an excuse to stay in bondage"....
I'm not trying to run away from that hard to nod or sad reality neither am i attempting to make out excuse to justify or dignify the situation.
Nay! I wouldn't do that,i wasn't built or made to cower at every roaring lion.
"Every precious things had their moment of testing; test of fire in order to become what will see as impeccable beauty".
Many saw the beauty in my attitudes but i saw the beauties of my thoughts...
There the change happened,
And there my story overturned.

I became intentional about the thoughts that i think,if they're worthy of my pondering,i accommodated them,if they are not,i trashed them.
I became mindful of other people's feeling,as if they could see through my thoughts.
I mediated more on God's words more than others and mine; an empty place is a space,i gave no rooms for further lies of Satan and his cohorts.
I started to have control over my thoughts,
I literally got a new mindset about everything.

Where am i now?
I'm in a place of growth haven't outgrown the ill of my dark days,
Haven't taken all the prescribed dosages for the healing of my heart and mind.
I'm writing this piece from a stance of gratitude that i laid my hands on that book that year and gave it my utmost attention while digesting all i needed to have a renewed mind.
Indeed, there is a battle ongoing in every minds, it takes intentional actions to subdue it and claim victory.
I was victorious, you too can be!

"You can not have a positive life with a negative mind"...