In one way or the other, we all have anxiety because most people are going through a lot. I was saying, if overthinking can be a person or there is a Grammy for it, then that should be me.I have tried my best not to be alone most of the time, but then most of the time I'm alone. This is because I overthink. Sometimes I just pray bad things should not happen because of the way I think.In one way or other, we all deals with anxiety, the unknown, because nobody really knows what will happen and because we don't know the future we keep asking ourselves what is for us and keep finding a way.The fact that not everyone will make it in life is also part of it.
I was on a journey two weeks ago, where I had fun with friends and brothers. As of a week before I came back to my place, I had a brother I talked to; we both slept together in the same room. We gisted; we talked about our work. He was a referee and also a coach in taekwondo, and I happen to be a coach. He gave me lots of tips on what to do. I also advised him to start going outside the country for a better job as a referee. We went to market on Tuesday to get stuff together. We came back, and he traveled to his place. I also traveled to my place. Just last week, I was told he died; the house collapsed on his head while he was saving others.Just like that, dreams and everything are gone. I mean, I'm bothered about everything.
I can't even think straight. I always believe I'm strong and have plans for everything. But what about death?I must say that I have so many things that bother my mind. Where should I start from? Knowing full well, I've been trying since I've known myself. To date, I'm still trying. The fact is, who do you want to talk to? Absolutely no one; the person you want to talk to also needs someone to talk to.Talking about what bothers me at the moment, I don't know where to start because everything bothers me.
But then I just wish the country later becomes a good one. The rate of poverty in my country is too high. While I was reading some speech about another country, especially Burkina Faso, on how the president has been trying so hard to save the country and makes education free in his country, it made me wonder about my own country too. Most of the panic in my country is just poverty; education doesn't determine your success; everything is just fucked up.
You know, the moment you keep thinking if you are going to make it or not, and you are trying your best all the time. That kind of anxiety brings depression and so on. Sometimes I just love to play with people so I will forget my sorrow, or hit the gym. I love sports a lot; it makes me forget my sorrows.
Lastly, how do I plan to tackle the problem? Well, by steady grinding and believing in myself that one day, truly, I'm going to make it, meanwhile I will keep praying because hard work alone will not make you go far if you are not spiritual enough, and spirituality without working hard or smart is also not enough.
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