Damn bro, sorry to hear about all your hard times.. i am a disabled combat veteran who saw a lot of action when the iraq war kicked off in 03'. From that I have bad ptsd and use to get vivid flashbacks regularly.. but over the last decade and a half they have slowly faded.. Now its very rare for me to experience flashbacks.. maybe a few times a year best.. Youll be alright friend, i promise.. It helps talking to someone, so you can work things out and let them go.. oh yeah, smoking weed helps a lot too 😉