TOO LONG. Still trying to get outta this place but I never expected it to be so tricky -__- (or my homeland be so hostile)

I've had gym memberships numerous times since I became an adult and I never stuck to it, not even close to finishing the 1 year or 6 months I paid for.

But at the same time, I'm getting to the point now where bench pressing at home isn't safe, and the weights will eventually kill me if I drop them rather than just feel like somebody has sat on me. I guess I could go ALL IN and buy a proper bench at home but... that would require moving to a place with more space...