maybe the second birth doesn;t influence us so much?

Yes, for me, second experience having a baby so far is much easier. I feel more relaxed and even taking care of the baby is easier. Things just come naturally.

.....like I lost myself after the birth of the baby;))

I'm sorry to hear you had a hard time back then...dont blame yourself, my dear. Becoming a mom changes everything. It was way harder for me too, with my first, especially the four months or so.
They say you dont give birth only to a Child, a mom is also born. And a New personality we dont know and we dont know what to expect.

And yes, I have some "free" time, if you can say so.
If it wasnt Caleb, I could have said I have plenty of Free time. Because the baby now only sleeps and also. But meanwhile, I need to Take care of the oldest.

Thank u for checking on us. We are fine! 🥰😘