being into Hive for the long run should mean that I'd get to enjoy when we finally get to that point rather than being half the human I once was by then.

Sometimes it takes us far too long to come to this realisation. You've achieved a lot here and deserve to take a step back to enjoy and appreciate it. I remember how small OCD was when you started out. Back then Curie was the bigger curation project, but it barely seems to exist any more. OCD has weathered a lot and is still solid, which is thanks to your devotion (for want of a better word).

I hope you can find a good equilibrium and get your health on track.