Sometimes I wonder if there was a life to live that we all not to experience love. People always talk about love as the greatest feeling and experience of life but when love came to be it really transformed me into something I never hoped to be. Basically to myself I am a man of my word but deep in my heart I am soft and don't want to hurt someone feelings but I have experienced life that ladies loss feelings when see you love them too much than they expect and they leave but when it gets too late they later realize they made a mistake of their life. I wish I was very good in poetry so I can deeply express how I feel for you all to understand.
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It is true nobody is perfect but why does live not go gradual with this feeling, why does breakup and lose of interest has to exist why does the good tasteful feeling not have to continue, sometime I look at the mirror and imagine myself kissing her, I remember telling a friend how I felt but no one truely understanda how I feel, if she had waited I don't mind forgiving her a thousand times.
Eachtime I enter social media and I see couples or relationship people talk about love and explains how it feels, I often break down, because it never worked for me, I even find it difficult to talk to other ladies because I have grown fond of her face and my feeling was too strong and overwhelming, she knew but she left regardless not even bothered how hurt I was.
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I know I am not perfect and I not too experience on love but why does love and feelings does not go with the person we really want but goes with the person. We don't want, I often clearn the mind and define my relationship with the ladies that love me or have interest in me but I don't like because I will never take her serious the way I should.
All I need is to love and be loved the same way I love. I wish I was very good with poetry my heart feelings will have touched a lot of hearts by now, because my feelings are sincere and true, I am not a liar or cheater, i stand for what I want and I try my best to get what I want but if what I want does not really want me, then I try to be the best version of myself.
Love love love, words I keep on denying even though I know its true, but it hurts me that makes me want to deny it forever, because I don't want anyone to feel this same feelings I felt. It will be dangerous if I pray my enemy felt the same way I felt a lot would have scattered or ended.
True love is real and enduring, I still hope to find one true person that loves me for who I am and makes me feel important in life, that will always put a smile on my face and make me happy every time, this is all a man need in life, money without True love can the empty and lonely.
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