Have you ever feel that you are nothing? Have you ever feel that you are unwanted. Whatever you do and wherever you go you feel like that you are not existing for them. They can't even appreciate you even you did your very best. Such thing is heartbreaking and very unpleasant to feel.
How could they take your love and trust, and throw it to the wind as if it didn't even matter- as if YOU didn't matter?
That is the first question that comes in our mind if we feel unlove and neglected. If you experienced abandonment in your life before it will leaves a biggest hole or scars in our heart. You will always think that you are not worth it, that you are only the second best. And because of that feelings, it affects on how we socialize and how we interact with others. It affects us physically, emotionally, psychologically and even spiritually. Sometimes we ask what we did wrong?
Unfortunately I am experiencing it right now. You know the feelings that I want to cry, I want to shout to ease the pain even just for a while. I did all my best. I loved, cared, and respected but still I am nothing. I did sacrificing just for them but it's not enough.
I knew that we can't pleased all people around us but it is still hurt. Self-pity can't help us. What can I do now is to love myself first. But you know what, it is easy to say but hard to do. Maybe today I will embrace and indulge the pain but I promise to myself that tomorrow or the other day I will smile again like nothing happened.
Love,
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