I almost didn't write for this, not because it isn't a great topic but it reminded me of days I can only wish never happened. Even though I've learned better and I'm very well now unlike back then, I still wish all that never happened. It is one of those experiences one would say "If I had known better" but also that experience that teaches more about self love because I learnt that first.
Self denial is not fun at all... No fun in it but one thing is sure, it has to be for a good cause.
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I've gone through a series of self denial both physically, spiritually and emotionally. All of which has been for my good in one way or the other but I can't think of any that I am being forced to do aside the one time I was diagnosed to have ulcer and had to deny myself of some kind of foods to eat. It was hellish for me who was rarely selective of food.
Not that the money wasn't available to get what I wanted, not that I wasn't in the mood to have what I want, I just couldn't and I had to cope with that for a really long time for the sake of my health. That alone taught me a whole lot of lessons I don't think I'll ever forget.
The truth is, I could have been able to refuse the self denial thing and bear with it's aftermath but I knew I wasn't living for myself alone and others around me wouldn't want to see me go through pains that I could have been able to avoid.
I'm not the strongest in health condition, no thanks to my lifestyle before now. The lifestyle of being inattentive towards my own self and living life just as it comes with no much discipline regarding how it would affect my health.
The year of my self denial wasn't easy, like I said, it's no fun at all as I had to battle with my cravings and sometimes I'm very tempted to almost giving up on the denial but I got through it as strong as I could and today, I'm living much better with almost no issues regarding the health condition (ulcer) from back then.
Another thing I had to face during every self denial phase I go through is the feeling of doubt. I tend to doubt the effect of my efforts to deny myself of things especially when I know I'll enjoy them or they could actually turn out to be good for me. The fact is, I try harder not to think negatively of my efforts to my self denial.
But then again, as I've said, those phases has helped build my self confidence and the heart to love myself more than I did before. I'm one of those who wouldn't care much about myself so long others around me are good to the best of my ability but those phases helped me keep a balance in caring for myself and for others as well.
Self denial is not fun but it is worth doing if you think it is
