Wow what a brave decision.
But I agree with you 100 %.
You have to do what makes you happy.
And if you reluctantly go to work every day and where you don't feel at home then you need to find something else.

You are the most important thing, your physical and mental health.
And by stepping out of your comfort zone you might just discover wonderful things.
Travelling is a very good way to find out.

I hope it will bring you much happiness and wisdom.
In any case, here in the Netherlands, you are always welcome.