Hi @rrruelyn newbie here. Nice to meet you. Thank you for sharing your thoughts it is very courageous to express yourself here. I've been there but you're still young and beautiful. Never lose hope and it's okay to be furious sometimes if you felt that you extract all out that feeling why not? Most importantly you get healed,surpass it all through and after you're done, switch mood you will the difference until such time slowly you get back to the real @rrruelyn who used to smile and you missed before. Cheers! Stay beautiful.