I appreciate that whole holistic approach to making sense of chaos but personally I don't seek explanations that are out of my reach. I live in the moment and when I see things going wrong I try to fix them or shift gears. It's the same idea as what you 're explaining but it is all within my immediate environment not the universe spewing its will over me. That's just how I see it. Either way man when you feel it's time to move on then it must be. Good luck with everything!