Little Planet #1

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"Beautiful all the time..
There is such a big misconception of what we call knowledge, and in the experience of living that knowledge..
I would like to share a small piece of my experience here.. please note that I do not mean to claim anything and I will try my best to keep it honest.

A little about a year ago, I had finally had it. I hit the brick wall of "need to make a shift" phrase.. So, I chose to make some really necessary changes in my life, mostly changes in my thought pattern, way of thinking. I constantly led my stories with, "so much pain and suffering.. so much ignorance!!" Beating myself up about how I hadn't realised I was living such a, at that time, an unacceptable way of life, such an ignorant one, constantly fighting with myself for this kind of blunder i'd "created".. So as you can imagine, the change itself was so heavily influenced by the idea of disgust towards the life I had lead up until then, that it felt like I quickly started developing resistance. Resistance to the way of life I had once lived as my own and resistance to idea of "pain and suffering" this is all a bit funny now, from where I am standing, but back then it had become my living reality, a nightmare of anger! This is where I learnt how to truly hate myself! Hate my past, but mostly hate myself! In my new visioned glass of life, I had committed an ignorant crime, the one I could not dare to forget or forgive!!
About a month and half ago, on on random evening of strange talks with someone I had just met a few minutes ago, something took a shift in me effortlessly. It was a shift in the way I was looking at things. It was simple and it was clear. Often, on this "path of self discovery" and, so many people claiming to have been there and done that and having insight towards this path, there is a whole lot of dos and don'ts we follow without even wanting to, like a set of confusing guidelines that make you feel more lost if anything. So much information about "the ways of lives" that it is really hard to be kind to all that is you!!
That evening, I looked back at my life and realised that in defining my past as ignorant, full of pain and suffering, I forgot how to see and appreciate the beauty of life in all stages, distorting life itself!! To whom it seemed ignorant and suffering was already a much different person than the one who lived that life and the one who lived that life.. made the best of it, in all possible ways.. In my "past" I was a diva and I found joy in living life like that.. I have much changed my views and likes in life now.. But my past was beautiful.. every bit of the way I lived was beautiful cause I truly did justice to the role I chose to play.
I think if we train ourselves to learn how to look at life as phrases and roles, a constant shift, a constant flow of energy, rather than conflicting pieces in comparison and hate, we will see that it is all just a part of evolution. From one from to another and that is all we need to know"

Written by @shunyata in contribution to this post.