Real stinker and I can feel your pain. I remember vividly similar experiences you have and I'll try to keep my story short. About three years ago I had about 4000 Steem Power and I borrowed liquid Steem from Neoxian. At the time I took out 350 Steem and played lottery numbers. I was about to get close to 1200 Steem and was planning to with withdraw the winnings, pay back Neoxian and use the remainder to buy Splinterland alpha packs. Greed got to me and I wanted to get to 1200 Steem exactly before withdraw. Never happened, I lost it all and principal too. For almost eight consective weeks I had power down my steem power and each week lost another 300ish steem because I was hoping to get back what I originally lost. While at the time Steem was valued close to $0.40 and an alpha pack was about 5 steems. I basically could have bought hundreds of packs if I just simply stick to what I had rather than trying to gamble for more. Worse part the loses made me unmotivated to play or do anything related to Splinterlands and I ignored it for over a year only to come back to it and pay top dollars to build a deck. Alpha cards was what I was trying to buy but premium on them are high.

Anyways we still alive and as long as we can play we just have to carry on with what we have and do the best we can. I do try to limit myself from dice rolls or any other form of crypto gambling. It is a recipe for disaster. You been playing well in Splinterlands, so enjoy it and continue doing just that. Do not try to think you can earn the quick buck because at the end of the day its more pain to recover from the losses than building on what you have.