A DECADE AND EIGHT

To the girl that I've known so much, you did well. You really did well.

In her years living in this world, she always think the sake of others, not thinking her own feelings. She has this attitude of hers that it is okay to her to be left out and hurt than to be the one who left and hurt someone. Yes it is a kind act of her but sometimes its not applicable to certain circumstances. She doesn't want to reject people because she always loves it when she makes them happy. She believes in the quote that goes,"The nicest act is making others happy". But not knowing, she tend to hurt them unconsciously in a way that she gave them hope that in reality even a little there was none and she's sorry for that.

Just like other people, she also face a lot and various problems. It tests her faith, strength, endurance and even her worth. Faith, her faith to God and His plans. Strength, her condition or her health because she always overthink that she has this certain disease that will someday kill her. Endurance, to keep running in the race eventhough she doesn't seem to see the finish line anymore. Worth, she always seek for answers about her worth or her purpose why she is her, actually she knows but it's not enough for her.

Inspite of this problem on herself, she's always been a good friend to anyone. She really don't like it when one of her friends is angry with her. Well, no one would like the situation when you and your friends are having a fun gathering but then deep inside there are grudges or worries in your heart. So, she really assures that everything is okay with her friendships or relationship with other people.

But of course, it would not be that easy for her to overcome those giants in her life if she has no faith on the greatest and biggest God among everything. Everytime she feels like her soul is seeking for God's presence, she always call onto him and pray. She always trust God even in times that she can't understand His plans anymore, still she's clinging to the promises of God. She believes that if you follow God everything will also follow. Although there are times that she tend to not prioritized God anymore, she just ask for forgiveness and cry onto Him. She loves God. Always. It's just that she became "more human" sometimes.

As for her student side, she's always determined to be on top but not really on the most top just in the top. Haha. But also just like other students or other people she also procrastinate and results to no time management. Yet she's still striving hard in doing everything she can.

She's not from a rich family nor from poorest family but she consider herself, only herself, a poor one. She always dream to give her mother a better life soon with the help of her siblings. "Ma just wait." She always do everything that her family would be proud of. She's just a typical girl but then God made her to be unique and special on her own. She's also blessed for the people that surrounds her for guidance and been her ever supportive folks!