I really like your honesty. And I have really loved your art reviews and insights. My daughter has artistic talent and I try to help her get ahead in the field even if she is just 11 years old. She is not quite in the familiar situations as you was, but I try to see the big picture in this. And what I try to teach her is that you cannot control the result only the present action. Just like playing golf, it is one hit at a time, not “I am going for the win” . Winning is an emotional state, not something you can act out in the now. At least thats my teaching. Would love your comments on it. Keep it up Steemswede my friend :-)
Oh and btw, your art is pretty good. It seems like a troubled birth or something like being not what was expected or somewhere between trying to fit in and wanting to get away at the same time, since forever