You wake up and you have this sweet bitter feeling, something you miss, something you won't even admit to yourself ! Missing someone to the point that you refuse to even think , a closure that has to do with your heart . I am better alone , right ? Nothing can heart me , no lies , no tricks , no nothing . A flat reality that gives me comfort or an illusion of hapiness ! Does it worth it ?
Only the future will tell ...
Is that self defence or just lying to myself ? Moving on is a procedure that comes with a lot of pain and anger and in the end a new chapter will shine or i ll keep re living the old one in my mind . No ones fault but still sadness !
I wanna let colors paint my life but the comparison is a huge trick that keeps me away from that fullfilling ! And i know that i m mature enough to know that things most of the times never work as we wish and that every memory , every act is a lesson for the future but i m such a bad student :) and probably so are you ! ?
Life is a mystery but this is, one of those days...
