It could be that people who commit suicide look fine because they still have a grain of hope in them.

Your post is very moving, and it reflects that underlying "hope." As you hint, when the world seems to be too much, too fast, too loud, too confusing, too stressful ... then it's a great idea to retreat, be with yourself, and understand that there is joy, peace, and happiness somewhere inside you.

You are free and independent of all. Of course, you have family and friends, but you realize that the power to live and love is inside you. It does not come from anywhere else or from anyone else. It comes from you.

Motivated by that power, you can stand tall, stride forward, and step back into the midst of the chaos of the world. And you can remain at peace ... always.

Peace.