Sometimes events happen that a person cannot influence, it happens that such a period drags on and the longer it lasts, the more difficult it is to reanimate oneself from the blows of fate. At such moments it is so difficult to believe in the long-awaited success. And there are no other options. It remains only to choose a place to your liking and pack your suitcase.
I always remember the words from a simple but very wise quote by Joseph Brodsky:
When there is so much behind everything, especially grief, do not wait for anyone's support, get on the train, land by the sea.
I'm happy for you, unfortunately I don't have that option.