He looked straight into my eyes, and was literally sucking my soul into his with the way he stared passionately.
As his hands were wrapped around my waist, he said “I want to kiss you Machi, I want to do even more than just kissing you, I want to feel the tenderness of your small round breast, I can’t help but notice how beautiful they are, and maybe if you want, we could make love, but that’s if you want it”.
My response was to take his right hand and direct it to my left boob (is it just me or does every woman have a favorite boob?), I guess he got the memo, because slowly and sweetly he fondled with them while he kissed me passionately and boy was I so deep into what we were having at that moment. I couldn’t lie to myself that I didn’t want it and haven’t dreamt about it, I had!
We fell on the couch of his small yet cozy apartment as we continued kissing. His hands moved on to interrupt the connection between my panties and my skin, leaving room for him to penetrate and immediately his fingers got to the destination they were headed, we both gave a gasp that screamed pleasure and he said faintly “shhhhitt, you are so wet……I love that you are putting on a lace pant”.
He kept thrusting his fingers and giving me so much pleasure that I begged for more, after quite a while of romance, he wanted to get into the “do” (lol, don’t ask me why I called it that), immediately he brought out his Penis, my mood changed, I pushed him away and told him I wanted to go home.
For something as intense as what we were having at that moment, why did I just switch up like that?
After asking me what the problem was about a thousand times and not getting any reply from me, he offered to drive me to the nearest junction, and I tell you what, That was the most awkward car drive ever, and also the most unfair thing I have ever done to a man because after that day, he never heard from me again till date and he really did not deserve the emotional stress I put him through( I imagined him asking what exactly he did and we all know how bothering it can be when someone we really like ghosts us )
At this point, you might be wondering why I did all that right? Well, my friends, what if I told you, it’s as a result of anxiety disorder, would you believe me?
Believe it or not, that’s my truth.
I said all that to say that anxiety is a thing and as much as I didn’t want to believe it, it was eating into my mental health and ruining different things for me.
Prior to that encounter, I had been hearing about anxiety disorder but I didn’t really care to know more about it. That day, as I got home, I looked it up on the internet and understood what exactly it was and it took me quite a while to accept it. When it started ruining almost everything in my life, I made a bold move to see a therapist and I am glad to tell you my friends that I am making massive progress, I am getting better and it’s so peaceful here.
Another reason I decided to share this story is to inform you about the importance of our mental health and how imperative it is for us to keep it in check. (See picture of a screenshot I took from the internet about the definition of anxiety disorder).
Read more about mental health and if you think you are going through any of it, make the first bold step to talk to someone close to you that you trust (you can write to us on Hive if you trust us) and see a therapist.
I really hope this helps somebody.
Oh! Before I stop typing, I must apologize for disappointing everyone who taught this was going to be a Hot story about Sex and how it ended with multiple orgasms, lol.
Picks up my slippers and runs away
Thank you for Reading, leave a comment for me, will you?
