Self-Growth 2.0 Week 9

With my dad being in the hospital and the offline hive event I am organizing in just a few days, I felt like it's extra challenge for me to divide my time but I am taking some breather and I know things are going to be fine. Despite everything, I am still going strong with the habit I managed to do. After all, in times of crisis, that's when I'll learn something new.

My problem was that this week, I was taking some swimming time that wrecked my schedule. I got sick and my backlog was pretty horrible. Then, the case with my dad that really did some deal. I made a deal with my mom that I'll visit her during the morning and leave at noon where I'll have to take care of other things be it in the house or outside.

At first, it was pretty overwhelming but after some time, I could finally think. During the waiting yesterday, I was reading Psalm a lot and found consolation in them. I can't believe just reading them really puts me at ease. This is the part where I am really consistent with my daily scripture.

I still remembered last year I basically almost quit everything after the first hospitalization of my dad. My life was even torn between two places and then, my grandma passed away that made me wonder if I should quit everything and re-think the way I lead my life. Only sometime ago, when I started these 90 days journey, my life was slowly going for the better.

I am being a lot tougher and more disciplined. I was more calmer during things like this and just like these days as being idle won't really solve anything and that's what not my family needs me.

I also learned that I can't rely on my relatives too as they all have their lives and I just can't conveniently hope they'd help out. That was when I realized that nobody is coming to save me or my family and I have to take the necessary steps.

As much as I know that, the truth is, I got a little a complacent when I wanted to be normal or just like any normal family would,when if anything happens to family members everyone would come to help.

The thing is, expecting that was only getting me hurt. Nowadays, I just learn not to expect anything and that is so freeing. I definitely don't feel obliged to help them if they were in trouble as usually when it comes to family these kind of things are pretty complicated. I can just help them taste their own medicine when the day comes.

Anyway, as you see despite these things I still workout too because that is becoming more important. When I workout, I have better grasp of the situation and more space for me to pause and think. The only thing that's missing is definitely the Comptia prep. I'll be taking them in like February after all these things are done.

I am slowly filling up that table. Anyhow, see you around and that's all the update for this week.