This is definitely a rant about my current work in boutique consulting a.k.a my own family consulting firm.
This might bite me in the future, who knows but this needs to be said. Sometimes, degree does not equate to competency. What it does tell us however is how one willing to tolerate bullshit and commitment. Those two keywords are so important in workplace, the traditional setting for sure since you would encounter those two.
I do not have the competency to tolerate bullshit nor a degree, what I have is for sure the love of working, making money and basically I am able to work hours on end, as long as I get paid. The keyword is getting paid.
Imagine that you don't really get along with your family and then suddenly you work with them? This was another thing that got into my considering before really jumping into it.
Maybe I should not complain either because I was the one who willingly get into the trap knowing that the cheese and what not is just a bait.
I never want to get into family feud over money, inherintance, and future business but like a person just coming out of the cave, I found out I was behind. I didn't like the idea that as 28 years old, with nothing to my name but a pile of debt with racking interest. So, obviously, that cheese and what not was really tempting.
During these past few months, I realized my greed level is increasing. I suddenly think about how to fix the management, operating costs, and how to grow the firm to be bigger so we can have a building in one of major business district in Jakarta.
Given our clienteles aren't just some random business owners, the lack of fancy building and office shun them away that we have to create other partnerships. I really think that removing a few middlemen and going public rather than staying as boutique consulting would help us in the long term. As I slowly understand the rope, somehow my greed level was increasing and that was a red alert for me.
Only I realized that my greed would only complicate my future relationship and a peace of mind. It's not easy to be responsible for million dollar projects. It's not easy to manage all that money. I am sure my mother is still keeping a secret somewhere that would shock us down the line but really, all I wanted is just free of debt, get my own house like all of my siblings and finally settling down with some savings.
Though I realized that now, I need to switch the way I think too. I need to stop shying away from money or wanting to make enough of it. I realized how hard it is to find job out there and when you already find your gold mine, why quit?
For now, I am just going to try my best to survive and not get carried away. I should also stop trying to moralize everything and be fine with the grey side of the world.
One bullshit at a time ....to reach my goals.
